When you are kept away from people for a long time and don't know how to make friends like everyone else you feel shuned. At time I feel like I don't know myself because i try to be what other people want me to be. I don't know how to express myself when it comes to my family and when People ask me "What's inside you what do you really think?" Nothing comes to my mind. It's like everything is empty. I feel like i don't even know myself....I feel like there is nothing inside of me. I hate when people sit there and say speak your mind and tell me how you feel when I can't. I don't know the real me.

I can't find out because when I try to be happy still I feel empty even when I have a boyfriend or am with my friends. There feels like there is a hole inside me that just can't be freed. Just because I can't explain it i feel like my soul is a caged bird just like I am inside. I feel lost and I don't know how to Fly anymore because I was brought up in a cage not knowing what or who I really am. I don't know what I think half the time because it's always blank......Who Am I really......What is my perpouse in life.....If some one could tell me that.....No...No one can tell me that but myself when i find out who I really am. When the cage is opened and ready for me to find out what I really am..